A lonely soul

People say “live your life to the fullest” but, what would life be if your loved ones are not with you?

Summer vacation has ended and the dark clouds started to cover the sunny sky indicating the start of school. Everything was fine during summer except for one thing. My vacation was incomplete because I did not spend it with my grandma.

Ever since I was a child, I lived with my grandma. When I started going to school and she lived in the province, I see to it that every time I m free, I would visit her. This time, my parents decided that for the break; I would have to stay here in the city. They had planned to have an outing and if I go there, I would miss it. At first, I said “so what? I do not care”, but I had no choice. I could not disobey my parents and they have no intentions of ruining my plan in staying in my grandma’s house. So, we had the typical summer vacation and we went to the Miraculous Virgin in Sibonga then we continued our trip to Carcar where we had to take the road to Barili and we headed to Badian. The place was very nice; with white sands and the beautiful beach. Of course, who would miss the most wonderful spot in Badian, the Kawasan Falls?

All that you could see in Kawasan Falls was absolutely amazing. The water was cold but you can not really stop yourself from splashing into the clear water. I admit that even though of the circumstances, I enjoyed our outing. I try not to remember bout my postponed vacation but it kept on sinking in my head. I tried forget the matter but once in while, I would be awaken by the fact that I m having my vacation without my grandma. We arrived in Cebu and I thought it was the time for me to visit her. Unfortunately, we have a crash course in Calculus and I had to attend it which means I was hopeless to see me “lola”. I really felt bad but it was also an opportunity to grab because Calculus is not that easy.

Until now, I still feel guilty because I never had the time. I hope my grandma would understand me and miss me the way I miss her. Today, my grandma is with us because she had a mild stroke and she needs someone to take care of her and monitor her especially the medicines that she took (because after every meal she takes a different medicine). Even though she is with us, I hate the fact that in exchange for the moment for us to be together, she would be in mild stroke. The effect of the mild stroke on my grandma was that she could not speak well. She may have the idea of what to say but she can not say it. I love to see my grandma but it does not to have to go this way.