The Provincial Capitol

Our group in computer was assigned to focus on the Provincial Capitol. My group mates are Lorenz Gideon Esmero and Janua Quilo and the next paragraph is about our cyber article.

The Provincial Capitol of Cebu will be celebrating its 69^th year of inauguration this coming June 14, 2007. The magnificent structure is standing for almost 70 years despite of its old age.

The history of this structure would trace back to June 27, 1936 where it all began. The building was constructed during the term of the late president Manuel L. Quezon. Cebu’s ex-governor Sotero Cabahug together with the ex-vice president of the Commonwealth, Sergio Osmeña Sr., led the cornerstone laying.

According to Mr. Roger Cerna, Juan M. Arellano was a nationally renowned architect from Manila who designed the magnificent structure. He was an American educated Filipino Architect who graduated from Drexel Institute of Philadelphia. The Capitol Building was an edifice of the White House in Washington, home of the United State’s president.

It was during the term of Cebu governor, Buenaventura Rodriguez when the completion of the building happened. The initiation of the building was attended by the late President Manuel L. Quezon which was held on June 14, 1938.

Unfortunately, the building was destroyed during the war but in God’s grace, it was mended and it was aided by the Americans under the Philippine Rehabilitation Act of 1946.

Until now, programs concerning the beautification of the edifice still exist.

This Provincial Capitol of Cebu is relevant to the Cebuanos for it is the home of one of the leaders in Cebu, which was the Governor. With this edifice, the people would honor and respect the government. In connection to this, it would be a haven for the people for it is where they could ask help regarding on matters concerning their stay in Cebu.

Loneliness

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The structure of ee cummings’ poem seems to be very bewildering and very hard to understand but as you stare at it, you could see that there is a part where it is enclosed in a parenthesis. Inside the parenthesis, a word is formed and that is “a leaf falls”. And on the outside part of the poem, loneliness is formed. Sometimes, people initiate the falling of a leaf as death like the story of the Last Leaf but sometimes, it does not only mean death though it could also be associated. The falling f a leaf may mean a separation. As we all know, leaves are grouped just like humans. We have our own set of friends and sometimes, due to some misunderstanding, one may choose to separate and isolate him or herself from the group. This is the same as the leaf that is isolated from the group of leaves. In a mathematical theorem or equation, we use parenthesis to separate a value from the other. Humans are like numbers that are given boundaries or is put in a wall. Humiliation is a factor where one would want to build walls within him or herself.

Research!!!

Our group’s research is about the “The Effectiveness of Sodium Hydroxide and Sodium Carbonate as Binding Agents in Papermaking”. The research project was a research proposal of Bernalene Vidal when we were still third years. Our aim is to be able to compare and see which of the binding agents named sodium hydroxide and sodium carbonate can effectively and strongly hold the recycled newspapers

When we started with our research, we recycled the newspapers. First, we would cut the newspaper into about half an inch. After which, we soak them in plain water for it to be pulpy after a day or two. When the process of soaking is done, we get some of the soaked newspapers, we got the excess water on it and we pounded it. When it is already evenly pounded, we set it aside and continue pounding on the remaining newspapers. After all the papers are pounded, we weigh a kilo of it and place the binding agents sodium hydroxide and sodium carbonate on each kilo of pounded paper. We mixed the paper and binding agents thoroughly and after which, we pour the mixture in the mold and deckle to form the paper. We get the excess water by using a sponge. After which, we put it under the heat of the sun. When it is already dry, we need to test the paper’s strength. We attach the paper at two ends of the clamp and then we put the weights one by one. When the paper breaks at a certain amount of weight, this means that the paper’s maximum load or weight sustainability is only limited to that amount of weights.

Our research study aims to help the companies in the paper industry to be able to know which binding agent is more efficient to use. It would also be useful because it is a way that we could lessen the cutting of trees as well as the bad things that may happen when we over cut trees which may lead to deforestation which can result to calamities like floods, landslides, mudslides and many more. By this study, we could also encourage everyone to recycle and not just throw our garbage.

THE LOOK.....

Sara Teasdale composed a poem entitled “The Look”. The poem is personified by a woman for she is naming boy’s names like Stephon, Robin and Colin. The first stanza states that Stephon had kissed her during spring while Robin kissed her in the fall. But, it was only Colin who never looked at her and kissed her. On the second stanza, she stated that Stephon’s kiss was lost in jest, Robin’s lost in play and it was only Colin’s eyes that haunts her night and day.

For me, the poem emphasizes that the word “kiss” in the poem represents the act of doing so but in the poem, it is not stated that the woman also loved them as so as the men mentioned. The kiss may represent some kind of a feeling but why Colin do only looked at the woman and not kissed her. After quite some time, the kiss of Stephon was lost in jest as well as Robin’s kiss but Colin’s stare remained. If we are to find another example, gifts may be a very good one. A person may be very happy when he or she receives a newly bought gift and sometimes, disappointed when he or she receives a handmade gift. If we would really look closely, a newly bought gift was just to empress the person and not merely for the sake of wanting the person to be happy. On the other hand, the handmade gift was made just for the person and with love. Just like the kiss, Stephon and Robin may only feel infatuation and not love and Colin, indeed, has a deeper meaning with his stare. The woman in the poem may not understand why Colin did not kiss her and instead, only looked at her. In the poem, I admired Colin for he did not take advantage of the girl and just kept his love in silence and in respect to the woman. Colin only gave a look but as what we can see, the simplest things are those which have deeper meaning and that look left something very important to the woman.

LOVE: An act of Will, Not of the Heart

“Love moves in mysterious ways” as what the song of Nina states. Indeed, it is and even though you are the wisest man on earth, no one is a good man when it comes to love. Love is a feeling that could not be explained. It knows no theorem, equation or amount and is boundless and infinite. It is the most unexpected feeling a person might have. Some say it is “magic” but others say it is a “curse”. Though love is a wonderful thing, many are unfortunate of this. Sometimes, love is based on the physical appearance of a person. A girl or boy would like a boy or girl for he is handsome or pretty. But, as time passes by, this love may fade with the contributing factors like knowing the true attitude of the person or his or her family background and many more. Could this situation be called love or just an infatuation? Within this event when the statement “love is an act of will not of the heart” comes into existence. As I go further, I may give my opinion to the statement or shall I say my stand on the topic and the points necessary to it.

Love for me is truly an act of will not of the heart. I may not be too good in discussing this topic but I may have some experiences which could be related to the topic. Will means the power of choosing and deciding. It takes the mind to decide and teach on what is good or not for the person, what is beneficial or not for him or her and what should his or her actions be. It is the most essential part of our system and is the source of our life. On the opposite track, the heart becomes the source of all emotions that a human may encounter. It does not act logically like the mind but emotionally. The heart does not think of the consequences or outcome of what a person does. It only acts for what it is beating for and does not matter if a person could get hurt and be fooled. If it is an act of will, it gives the person the free will to choose the right or proper man or woman and not just merely the one he or she loves but does not love him or her back. The will teaches us to fight when we know that we are fooled by the one we love. If it is an act of the heart, we may be blinded by the fact that we love that person no matter you change him or her. It is also an act of the heart when you go into different obstacles just to fight for the wrong person. This kind of act may not be good for the person secluded with “love” may give everything and does not have anything left for him or herself. And maybe, that is the reason why the brain is always higher than the heart.

How... I want...

Every person in the world would like to feel special and remembered in the aspect which you are unique of. If a person says that he or she does not want to be remembered, well maybe, he is a fool. As time passes by, we get to go into different schools and meet knew friends, classmates, schoolmates and sometimes, enemies. There are some which leave footprints in our hearts but there are also some which leave a scar. But all in all, the things which conquer our hearts most are the good memories that we have. We may include the times which we were hurt but in the sense that we were able to learn from it. And now, that we are to part our ways and start a new school year with strangers which we are really clueless of the things about them.

When I leave our high school life, I want to be remembered not base on what they see physically but what they feel when I am with them. Others may have a misconception or have misunderstood my attitude but I hope they have changed their outlook towards me. I want to be remembered as the girl who is strong for despite of the problems and stress that we have encountered, I always smile or laugh it out. It is not because I can not solve my problems but because I realize that “Laughter is the BEST medicine” and if you will keep your problem within yourself, it might get worst. I want to be remembered as the girl who is always ready to give a helping hand. In our situation, our friends are the listeners to our problems and sometimes, the people not close to us are open to their problems as well. I want to hear their problem and if ever I can offer a help, it would not be a big deal. If they would have problems on their projects, I am always willing to help them. I want to be remembered as the girl who would really fight for her rights. When I feel that I am right, I do not hesitate in fighting for it and if my friends are in need, I see to it that I can help them in any way I can. I want to be remembered as the girl who is very devoted in her work. Our life in UP High is very stressful and as what as Sir Em-Em says, it is “toxic”. It is very hard because there are many works to be done but despite the fact, I see to it that I could do my projects and assignments and if ever I am assigned to a task, I would not stop unless I can do it. And lastly, I want to be remembered as the girl who is very artistic. As what most of my classmates know, I really want to be an interior designer. I admit that I am not that smart in math or in any subject but when it comes to color, figures and art, I would stay up late just to think of a certain concept.

As I leave UP, I hope that I could be remembered by my classmates in the simplest thing I know how, as a friend.

Success

As the school year started, our Filipino teacher told us about our Drama fest. It was already not new to us for we have seen the drama fests of the fourth year students ahead us. We were unconscious with the time and we realized that it was already January and that event is fast approaching. We then organized the committees for the drama fest. All of us voted for Razel Paldo to be our production manager and Artsron Sumabong as our director. Sunshine Enriquez was responsible for the script, Carla Erike Lagrana for the management stage and Jeraline Gumalal for the stage design. April Gamboa was the director the lights, Czarina Bayani was responsible for the dialogs of the actors; Bernalene Vidal and Jessa de Erio were the directors for the music. I was assigned with the props needed in the play, Christille Gultiano was for the costumes and make-up and Nathaniel Gopinathan was for the Production Album. We also chose the main characters for our play. John Paul Catubig played the role of Rene, Joseph Esteban as Don Ramon, Gayle Lorraine Tallo as Donya Chedeng, Shallunah Faith Leopardas as Marilou and Nico Antonio Sagun as Tasyo. For the supporting characters, Byron Enriquez played as Antonio, Janua Quilo as Mario, April Rhiz Dichos as Leony and Shydel Raya as Theresa. For the squatters, Richard Rey Caminade, Mary Lyndel Amora, Jezza Lagura, Reniel Pañares, Nathaniel Gopinathan and Novelyn Lao played the roles. Lorenz Gideon Esmero, Eldee Balolong and David Aiello Zamora played as the police.

When we were done with assigning, Czarina and Razel directly started with the practicing of the lines. On the other, Jeraline and I started making the playbills, posters and the frame for the props. April also started her work on the lights (the connections, the foot lights and head lights needed) and Christille was busy looking for the costumes. All of us were very focused on the assignments we need to accomplish. We go home very late just to practice because we also need to practice the lights as well as effects of the light during the play. Arstron see to it that the actors would portray the characters well and there would be no blocking in a certain scene. Before the judgment day, we had the “critique’s night”. In it, our teacher invited critiques such as Ma’am Rabago-Visaya, Mdm. Montaño, Kuya Chamy and and Kuya….and we are very thankful because with them, we were able to know what are our flaws and what we need to pratice.

The judgment day came and unfortunately, the wiring of the lights was destroyed but it was not a hindrance in our presentation. We finished our play successfully and section Gonzales followed. The awarding was done after some production numbers performed by the UPSTAGE members and the interpretative dance of Christine Nolasco and Lorem Mendoza. We won the “best playbill”, best actor” which was John Paul Catubig, “best actress” which was Gayle Lorrine Tallo, “best supporting actor” which was Nico Antonio Sagun, “best director” by Artsron Sumabong and “best production” by Razel Paldo.

PROM '07

Promenade means a leisurely walk in a public place or a march of guests opening a formal ball but the popular description of it is a formal dance held by a high school or college class. But beyond all its meanings, prom (in short of promenade), does not only reflect something social but something memorable and happy. Each one of us has experienced being a lady and gentleman once we had a prom. Girls get excited and focuses their attention on what would they look like on their elegant and classy gowns. On the other hand, the guys get busy on their hair and suits for the prom. All and all, what is important is how different types of people meet and mingle.

JS Prom means Junior and Senior Prom but in our case, some of the juniors and seniors are not in good terms. This started during our intramurals. I do not know but it is already usual that seniors really are in contrary with the juniors. Now, the problem is that we are somewhat uncomfortable with them because of what had happen and we do not have a choice for we must be paired with a junior. In my case, the worst thing happened because I was paired to the person that I really do not like. For me, he was very hard headed and a very misbehaved person. He was also the pair of Razel for the boys in U.P. are quite few so our teachers decided that the boys would have two girl partners. As what was expected, our partner does not practice seriously. I have shared this experience in my previous blog. But as time passes by, we became friends because he was more behaved than the usual and he already listens when we say that he must do this and do that.

Finally, the prom came. I had a hard time with my sandals for the heels in it were very high and I am not used to it. When I arrived at the hall, every person I see was transformed into a beautiful ladies and gentlemen. Gone were those boyish manner of some girls and the boys acted as if they were really grown ups. You will get amazed with how a simple duck turns into a swan. The theme of our prom was “Blazing Trails of Legacy and Friendship” and indeed, it was. With the renewal of each junior and senior was the renewal of the friendship we made. The quarrel and uncomfortable feeling that we had were all gone. We were all smiling, taking pictures and talking. The time came when we had to walk down the aisles with our partner. Everything went well and all of us were able to walk properly. In the eating part, we also enjoyed the food and it was very delicious and after which, the prophecy and legacy was presented. We were laughing with their presentation because it was very nice and it presented the characters in our batch clearly. Our practice with our pair would have been irrelevant without the crowning of the junior prince and princess, senior prince and princess and the prom king and queen.

When, the event ended, all the bad memories during the intramurals vanished and along with us were the unforgettable memories and the precious token (it was a c.d. and small pillow) that they have given us.

A Valentine Activity

Each of us are made to complement each other, may it be through knowledge, emotions and many other. We are like letters in the alphabet that can form a word which in turn, could make a sentence and finally, can relay a message. In contrast to this, others may be easily manipulated and could be like a topographically typed message. Let us face it, people are people. You, I, and many other have flaws in our own life and two of this is not showing our love and not appreciating the person/s who have love us. We sometimes prefer to hide our feelings because we are afraid to be rejected, to be hurt and we thought that we did the right thing but often, this could lead to misinterpretation. I think no one would wish to be sad and that wish of ours to be happy could make others feel worst and be disappointed because with our wish to be happy, we tend to be silent and not express what we feel for that is the only way we feel happy.

As I think of the activity we did last Tuesday, February 13, 2007, I realized that it has been a long time since I wrote a letter to my parents and to my loved ones telling them how much I loved and appreciated them. I was happy for our English teacher gave us the chance to express our gratitude and affection towards the person special to us. Our teacher let us made a letter (an I love you and a Thank you letter) to the person/s we want to say I love you and Thank you. I really see to it that I wrote everything especially my feelings for them. It is very important for us to learn to love and to appreciate each other. Specifically, say everything you want to say, express what you feel and do not wait for the moment to stop before you realize that it was too late to let them feel that they were loved and appreciated. Maybe, it might be too late for you to say I love you and thank you and you may regret not to have done or say that thing.

Our teacher gave us a copy of a song and above it is a poem. The poem was, at first, very deep and you feel that you can’t understand it but as the song continued to play, we were able to get the thought of the poem. Our teacher was also very nice for he further explained to us what the poem really meant and the representation of the objects used in the poem. With the activity, I realized how important it is to say what you feel to the person important to you.

KYSD

Know Your School Day or KYSD is one of the school events that we, students, could participate in our school. Each of the students is given the opportunity to be a teacher, a guidance counselor, a clerk, a principal and a PED chair. All we need to do is fill up the form given by the student council and go to the subject teacher we want to. The teacher would have to approve the form and after which, the student is assigned on what lesson would he or she tackle to the class (specifically, the section where the student belongs is where he or she would teach). After which, the forms are collected by the Student Council and they see to it that each student would have an I.D. At first, the students are recognized and they are to go up the stage, to be recognized and to get the I.D. After the event, they could already start teaching at about two to three days depending on the range or time planned for the said event. When the event has finally come to an end, the students would perform the presentation they prepared for the teachers and give them a token of appreciation.

The activity is participated by anybody who wishes to be a teacher for about two to three days. I personally do not want to be a teacher for the fact that I have a difficulty in presenting in front of many people because I got easily nervous. Aside from this, I am not an effective speaker and for other reason, I do not consider myself as a very smart person and I feel that I do not have the right to teach. I am also afraid that if I teach, my classmates might not understand the topic. Maybe, I will just stick to being a student and not a student teacher.

This kind of activity is helpful for the students to be active in being a teacher and share their knowledge to everybody.

My Reflections

Whenever I see old people in the streets, I want to have a lot of money so that I could build a place for them where they could be taken cared of. In this place, they could be happy and be treated with respect and love. I do not know but it is may be because. I have too much attachment with my grandma. One time, when our CWTS Officers said that we would have an outreach program in Gasa sa Gugma(Mabolo), I was very happy for at least, we could show or affection towards them. When we would try to go the deeper meaning of having a program like what our CWTS class has planned, we would realize how lucky we are that we still have our love ones with us and that we feel so much endearment from them. For me, this was the best experience that ever happened in my entire high school life.

We left U.P. High School t bout 1:00 in the afternoon and we rode on a bus. The place was not that far and there was no traffic so we arrived early. I was one who first entered Gasa sa Gugma and I was overwhelmed by the fact that the place was quiet. Even though the vicinity was near the road, these elderly could relax and have a peaceful life. Before we could mingle with them, we need to tell the nun handling the institution. When our CWTS adviser was talking to the nun, I felt that friend was leaning at my back. I thought that she was just sleepy or something but as I turned to look at her, she was already crying. My friends asked her on what was the matter and she said that she was just touched as she look at them. While she was saying those words, I also felt the same and my eyes were close to crying. I tried to stop it and luckily, my other friend helped me to get over. At last, we were permitted to get inside. The “lolos” and “lolas” looked in amazement and confusion. Some of them were amazed that they saw other people side from those working in the institution and some are confused on who we are and what are we doing there. Most of them re outside their rooms for they have just done taking their nap. I can not help myself but cry when I saw one of the workers who transferred these aged people from the wheelchair to a seat. It was not that simple for she was transferring these sensitive people to a chair like they were just dumping garbage. There was not any sign of love or even of respect for the elderly.

I know that it was not proper for me to cry but I could feel how these aged people longed for a hug and appreciation from somebody. A place like the “Home of the Dying Destitute” should be visited by people who do charity works so that there would be a lot of us who could show to these elderly that they re special and somebody still cares for them.

WOW Philippines

“We triumph without glory when we conquer without danger” quote from El Cid written by Pierre Cornielle. This emphasizes that a person walking on the safety line makes no accomplishments worthwhile.

Our country has been blessed with beautiful spots which we can be proud of. For Filipinos like us, we re benefited by these wonderful gifts. We are very grateful that we have the distance advantage in these places unlike the foreign tourists who spends so much just to visit these havens. Examples of these places are Boracay, Siargao, and many others. Another thing our country has been applauding for is our mouthwatering food and delicacies. An addition to these is the wonderful culture we have including the different happy parades and colorful festivals we celebrate.

Even though we re a third world country, we can never deny the fact that we re visited by a lot of tourists. One main reason is because our country has been known to people who have discovered our place. Another reason is that they had been in the Philippines and they wanted to go back. Or, they really love the Philippines. Whatever their reason may be, only these tourists know. But why the Philippines? Many of them have bad experiences while having their vacation here but why PHILIPPINES?

The quote of Pierre Cornielle enters here. Why not take the risk when you know that you would be very contented on your decision. This implies to the tourists who, in spite of the danger that may happen, they are persistent in doing so. By this, they achieve more and the memories are priceless.

Significant Human Experience

I really thought that I would not have anything to write this time but I was wrong. All went right and everything was fine. My life was happy and my special someone and I are very much contented with each other. Everyday was wonderful until an event came. It was July 20, 2006, Thursday, when that experience happened. I was washing the dishes when I heard our neighbor somewhat like in panic. I thought she was only fighting with her husband because it is not new to us and that always happen. So, I continued with what I was doing. Then, my mother saw somebody in our gate and she opened it.

She saw the sister of our neighbor and the girl asked if she could use our phone. My mother asked her on who would she call for she was already crying. The girl answered that she would call her mother and asks for help because his nephew was having a convulsion and his brother-in-law was in Dumaguete. Mother, who was also in panic, suggested that they must bring the little boy to the hospital. Luckily, my father arrived early from work and offered a help in bringing the boy to the hospital. My father went to their house to assist them in handling the boy. When they were on their way to our van, they passed in front of me and I actually saw the boy who was very stiff. He likely tries to move but he can not for his whole body was hardened. I was really shocked and I got nervous because it was only at that time when I saw someone in that condition. I was trembling and I was not able to sleep so I decided to wait for them. My parents came and they said that the boy was already attended by the doctor and was already fine. The boy would have to stay for he must take some tests, especially in the brain, to assure that he would be okay. The boy’s mother said that he fell from the window because he was plying with his siblings and he tried to climb but he was not able to hold so he fell.

For me, it was the main thing we should realize and that we should live our life to the fullest because we never know when God would take it from us. We must not be awkward in doing things for ourselves and for the people we love. Just like our neighbor, it started with a simple fever and in that instant, he had a convulsion. He might not notice the significance of what has happened but in the case of his mother, that moment was very important because for any moment, he could lose her son. So, if you want to do something, do it now. If you want to say something, say it or if you want to hug somebody, do it because we never know when would our lives end?

A funny moment

It was June 13, 2006 at about 4:00 p.m. in the afternoon, when I experienced the most embarrassing and the funniest moment in my life.

On the first day of school, we only have a half-day. Actually, it was a sort of an irregular class because in the morning, we just met with our adviser and in the afternoon we are free to go home. Some of my friends were part of the presentation for the first year orientation so I have to wait for them. When they were already done with their presentation, we decided to go to Ayala and buy an accessory for our bags. We would beautify our bags because we were not allowed to wear accessories

When we were on our way to Molave, my friend saw her crush across the road. She grabbed Juna and pointed on the person across the road. Shedyl and I were bewildered because there were also two guys smiling and waving at us at the opposite side of the road. Then, I asked my friend “why were they smiling at us?” then my friend said that she doesn’t know and that she is referring to *** ********. So, who were those guys? We were laughing very hard because those guys really thought that they were the ones that we were referring to. My stomach was even aching because of that funny incident. When we arrive at Ayala, we go directly to the place where the key chains and accessories are found. Shedyl was sleepy that time and she yawns and sounded like “hayyyy”.

Then, the guy at the opposite side smiled at us. My friend was shocked for we have not yet overcome on what had happened in Molave so she decided to stay away from them for the guy and his friends were approaching us. We ran and went to the third floor of the mall. Thank God, they stopped following us. Maybe, they got tired a

nd with what we experienced, we got home just so that we would not be able to encounter another horrible experience.

Even though it was a funny experience, I was also afraid for the guys who were waiving at us might really assume that we were referring to them and that might stalk at us (this might sound crazy but some of the U.P. students have stalkers). It might have been dangerous if those guys were really consistent in following us like what happened when we were already in Ayala. Past is past and that event made us realize that not everybody in this world has good intentions to everyone. Aside from this, we realize that not everyone thinks first if they are the ones being referred to.

In this experience of ours, there was a lesson for us to learn. Now, we are very vigilant in pointing or even saying something to the right person and not just “bark t the wrong tree”. We really see to it that we do not mislead anybody.

A lonely soul

People say “live your life to the fullest” but, what would life be if your loved ones are not with you?

Summer vacation has ended and the dark clouds started to cover the sunny sky indicating the start of school. Everything was fine during summer except for one thing. My vacation was incomplete because I did not spend it with my grandma.

Ever since I was a child, I lived with my grandma. When I started going to school and she lived in the province, I see to it that every time I m free, I would visit her. This time, my parents decided that for the break; I would have to stay here in the city. They had planned to have an outing and if I go there, I would miss it. At first, I said “so what? I do not care”, but I had no choice. I could not disobey my parents and they have no intentions of ruining my plan in staying in my grandma’s house. So, we had the typical summer vacation and we went to the Miraculous Virgin in Sibonga then we continued our trip to Carcar where we had to take the road to Barili and we headed to Badian. The place was very nice; with white sands and the beautiful beach. Of course, who would miss the most wonderful spot in Badian, the Kawasan Falls?

All that you could see in Kawasan Falls was absolutely amazing. The water was cold but you can not really stop yourself from splashing into the clear water. I admit that even though of the circumstances, I enjoyed our outing. I try not to remember bout my postponed vacation but it kept on sinking in my head. I tried forget the matter but once in while, I would be awaken by the fact that I m having my vacation without my grandma. We arrived in Cebu and I thought it was the time for me to visit her. Unfortunately, we have a crash course in Calculus and I had to attend it which means I was hopeless to see me “lola”. I really felt bad but it was also an opportunity to grab because Calculus is not that easy.

Until now, I still feel guilty because I never had the time. I hope my grandma would understand me and miss me the way I miss her. Today, my grandma is with us because she had a mild stroke and she needs someone to take care of her and monitor her especially the medicines that she took (because after every meal she takes a different medicine). Even though she is with us, I hate the fact that in exchange for the moment for us to be together, she would be in mild stroke. The effect of the mild stroke on my grandma was that she could not speak well. She may have the idea of what to say but she can not say it. I love to see my grandma but it does not to have to go this way.